I went from living to existing
My personal journey to happiness and contentment began with a path of pain. At the age of 22, I became an insomniac. Not the occasional sleepless night but never sleeping, ever. Digestive problems followed with intense bouts of nausea, so acute that I'd make my throat bleed sticking my fingers down it to alleviate the pain. Occasional back pain escalated into sciatica and then all over pain followed.
However, I was also driven, and conventionally career focussed, regularly working 120 hours a week. Working in the media industry meant drinking to excess and enjoying recreational drugs, and if I am honest, I enjoyed it all a little too much. Neither my doctors nor I were surprised I was suffering from sleep and gastro problems.
A spider sat down beside her
In 2011 I moved to Australia to lead the media department of an international agency. I went seeking adventure and that's precisely what I got. One day while lazing on a beach in Sydney, I was bitten by the smallest spider. The smallest of nips was about to have the largest of impact on my life. Within a few hours my leg was swollen so badly that I was limping. The Doctor informed me I'd had been bitten by a bacteria riddled bug. Horrified, I happily took antibiotics and watched the swelling subside.
Little did I know what lay ahead. Tiredness turned to chronic fatigue. Bouts of nausea turned into 24/7 debilitating nausea. An allergy to alcohol turned into an allergy to almost everything, so extreme that I was reduced to only eating frozen white fish, white potato and peeled pear. My periods stopped, my bowels ceased working, my hair fell out then eventually stopped growing altogether. I itched from head-to-toe to the point it drove me to tears. I had malabsorption that had me limping to the toilet after only the smallest sip of water - which with chronic fatigue was torturous. I had lucid dreams so terrifying I'd throw myself out of bed in an attempt to wake myself up from them. The list of symptoms was endless and so incredibly painful.
My catch 22
I have always tried to understand people who suffered from depression but if I am honest up until this point, I didn't truly empathise. By now I was so ill that I didn't want to go on and I had no choice but to give up my job, the beach lifestyle and fly home. For the next two years, I lay in my parent's spare bedroom, rarely leaving the house. I saw specialist after specialist with a familiar prescription of antidepressants. The darkest period came when a doctor of last resort told me that I would eventually develop cancer and at that point, and only that point, would the NHS help me. The Joseph Keller Catch 22 was that I was too sick and with too many symptoms that I was too expensive to treat, so they wouldn't, not until I developed a terminal disease.
Action cures fear, inaction creates terror
This was the jolt that spurred me to stop self-pitying and grieving for myself and to start a journey of curing myself. I had tried almost everything by this point, and then a friend told me about Biomagnetism. I thought I had tried everything else, so I had nothing to lose. In the first session, the therapist found the most extensive list of pathogens from Tuberculosis to Strep to Guillain Barre, and finally, my Lyme disease and co-infections were diagnosed.
However, after 3 years of attending treatments religiously every week, I still wasn't recovering. I was crippled with feelings of misery and depression and eventually had to face the fact that there was more to it all than just pure infection and that the likely root cause of my chronic disease was emotional.
Unsure of what to do to get rid of these emotions, I studied the impact of the mind-body connection and came across a biologist called Bruce Lipton and his theory of The Biology of Belief. I trained in EFT and Reiki thinking EFT would be the one to 'cure' me. After a few months of EFT with minimal change, I moved to Reiki thanks to what I had learned about the human body, the mind, and the energy systems that connect us. Combined with my new knowledge about the impact of belief on the disease it seemed like and absolute no brainer to attack negative energy with energy healing. And that was it. At last. The shifts were momentous, and finally, I started to heal.
Falling in love with myself
And then, the most beautiful emotional thing happened…I fell in love…with myself. I discovered that I had been conditioned from such a young age to believe that I wasn't enough, that I wasn't deserving, and deep down in the dark recesses I had the belief that I deserved to and needed to be ill. All of this work made me see what I'd been hiding behind with drugs, partying, alcohol and excessive working. I hated myself, I couldn't look at myself, I spent my entire life body dysmorphic, riddled with OCD, crippled with insecurity and a complete lack of self-love. Within a few short months, I had cleaned it all out, and underneath it had found my self-respect, self-love, self-confidence and the belief in myself that I could do and be anything I wanted to be, including healthy. These limiting self-beliefs and toxic emotional energies had controlled my entire life, my every move and thought, and they'd engulfed me in years of chronic disease. At last, I was free to be me.
My very own big bang
My epiphany moment was big and bright; stuck, blocked emotional energy is dangerous, and causes more dis-ease than all the pathogens in the world ever could.
Emotional, energetic release work is hard, and it's painful, and it makes you face things you'd really rather not. It was like someone holding the sides of my head and forcing me to stare into the mirror I'd spent years avoiding. But had I not done the work I'd still be ill today, and I always would be.
And so the work I do now, as Enlightened Life, is aimed at helping other people realise the impact that their emotional energy is having on their health, and helping them to facilitate their own healing, freeing them from disease to become the people they always were. What's more is that I love it, and as bizarre as it sounds, I'm not sure I'd change much of what it took to get me here.
When we heal, we free ourselves to become the people we always wanted to be.
With love & gratitude
I had never had Reiki before but decided to try it after having tried medications and counselling for my depression and anxiety. After only a few sessions with Kerry I am amazed at how much my depression has lifted and I am no longer held back by anxiety. I would definitely recommend Reiki with Kerry to anyone.Sue
I am amazed at how much better I feel, a lifetime of depression is gone, anxiety and fear a thing of the past, and as a truly amazing side effect the physical pain and discomfort I was in is also completely gone - no more neck brace! I would definitely recommend Reiki and Enlightened Life to anyone, it has given me my life backShelagh
Really restorative! Kerry uncovered a lot of current and deeper causes for the way I felt and helped me achieve a much greater sense of self-awareness and clarity. Give it a go!!Eve
Kerry has made significant progress with my lower back and neck pain. The sessions have been undertaken in a wonderful relaxing environment and Kerry is a very warm and responsive Reiki practitioner. Highly recommend!Christian
I have seen Kerry 3 times, and every time has been even more powerful than the last. She has managed to uncover issues in all areas of my life that I didn’t even know where there, so I could finally address them and shed the weight. 10/10!Sophie
I was really sceptical about this Reiki stuff, but I was surprised how relaxed I felt after my session with Kerry and have continued to go back as per her treatment plan suggestion. Would recommend anyone to give it a goFred
Reiki with Kerry is amazing, it's like learning your own internal gossip, that you had no idea was thereScarlett, 16